ugh.

[minoanmiss]

The milk of human kindness is run dry and its dregs are curdled. Today at work was enervating. At least S listened to me whine about one particular bit (translator told me the patient's name was "Perfect" because that was, I presume, a comment the patient's wife made. I asked for confirmation. The patient's name was not Perfect. We will call him Rodriguo for storytelling purposes) and then teased me about it later. I needed that laugh. And RK came and hugged me twice. But SO MaNY of my calls were frustrating like that. And a Thing I was scolded for doing turned out to be the recommended way to do things after all. I am childishly displeased. But enough about work.

Other countries are expanding human rights. (yay Thailand! Love wins!) The US, meanwhile, is contracting them. I feel like I should post about things happening but SO MUCH IS HAPPENING and the overwhelmingness is intentional. If I post about A I'll feel guilty towards B and someone will tell me about C and I need to stay sane enough over the next four years to earn enough money for donations and stamps.

I do not want to ever talk to someone who voted for Trump again as long as I live. (Anyone who wants to be sophistic about work, shopping, etc -- just don't.) I know we're supposed to be loving but I kind of hate Marjorie Taylor Greene and every single lunkhead who voted to inflict her on the US. And not just her. But again I cannot and should not try to make a full list.

I need to feel better because I cannot drown in this. But right now I'm going to let myself have a moment to feel fucking terrible.

Comments

[dissectionist]

The way I see it is that I am very loving, and my love is for the marginalized and the oppressed who actually need it and deserve it. If the oppressors want to be loved too, then they can make themselves people deserving of being loved.

[sovay]

I need to feel better because I cannot drown in this. But right now I'm going to let myself have a moment to feel fucking terrible.

Love. Most of the ways I feel are not viable on the record.

[dewline]

Amen to all of this.

[princessofgeeks]

HUGS

Take care of yourself and do what you can.

I am not looking for politics on Dreamwidth, so that's a data point.

You do you. Post whatever you like and find time for good happy thoughts and fun. This will be a long haul.

[sabotabby]

The point is to overwhelm us. So much is happening that we can't talk about a single thing.

I have no sympathy left for any of these people. We can't shoot them all. But I think we may need to shoot at least some of them so that the others stfu forever. (Metaphorically speaking. Into the sun. You know.)

[totient]

You have inspired me to go listen to some Billy Bragg.

[acelightning73]

"If I had a rocket launcher, I'd make somebody pay."

[elainegrey]

Should i put the commitment posts i'm making under a cut? Staying sane and functional are critical path. I keep telling myself to focus on where i see communities that foster support and respect -- we need to take care of each other to be able to thrive when conditions change.

[minoanmiss]

No, no not unless you want to. as I said I was taking a moment to be Bitter before putting on my hope-embroidered big girl pants and going to see what I can do for my country. Seeing other people (such as you) do so as well is most encouraging.

[cellio]

MTG is not the only problem but she works so hard to be a prominent fucking problem that it makes sense to call her out even knowing there is much more rot.

You should write about the things you want to write about, and not write about the things that don't, and feel zero guilt over those choices. The "but what about...?" folks can go elsewhere. You're not a journalist; you're an individual human sharing individual human thoughts, just like the rest of us. Having a journal does not come with obligations.

[ailbhe]

I am loving enough to give everyone a baseline of human rights and I will not advocate for torture or murder even of the people I hate. But I don't love them any more than that.